Hello out there!
Merry Christmas!


Currently it's 12.40 pm here and I am looking forward to Christmas Eve, because this is the time which is the actual celebrating of Christmas here in Germany.
My parents bought a christmas tree this morning and now we are going to decorate it soon, before we will go to the church to sing and celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ.

Yesterday I had some small Christmas Party with my friends. That was so much fun!
We sang a lot of lice christmas song and two friends of mine palyed the guitar and we drank punch and played some card games and exchanged presents. I got home at 0.30 am and was soooo happy^^
Now I finally feel like christmas.

So, christmas is upcomming and it is ... near.

I still havent got all of the presents, but I think it might be intzeresting this year. Although I am so busy and I we wont get holidays until the 24th.

But a friend of me and I sang Christmas songs in our German Class today.

... I lo~o~ove you..."
Goodness. I have this song in my head and it won't escape.

Now it's about 4 weeks until Christmas. That's a bit funny. I can clearly remember last year and our new year's party and everything around. I am getting old... Sometimes you kind of recognise that.

And today, weekend, means: Free time. For the first time since forever. I have to study for school actually, but maybe I can do that tomorrow, and just enjoy the day, in which way, I don't now. There is nothing to do. Eventually I am bored.


AND my throat aches.

Today I came beack from my micro-vacation. Some friends and I went to some city we really like.
It was so much fun and we did so many things and for almost three days I was nearly completely happy. During our way back home by train, we all said that we actually didn't want to go back home, because we had such an awesome time without pressure and everything.

I think, life is getting me down lately. It's enough. I want a fresh start but I don't know where to begin with. And if there are things that can be changed and important decisions I can make, because I feel so powerless.

And I have some new favourite music. I am very happy about that because I actually cannot live without music, but didn't have anything I really liked listening to.

Since yesterday everything has been changing, or rather... everything is changing for quite a long time now, but I just realized.

This is the thing: I am doing so much stuff at this momentent and I don't know where I am heading to. Okay, I have to learn for school, this is something that I cannot change, but then...
I think I don't have a plan for anything. Sad situation.




I once read a phrase, its a bit like that, but I cannot exacly remember it. I think it was something from DevArt, but...

"I am a lie and you are a liar
and you love your lie
and you love lying and
I want to trick everyone in the world"